Today I just want to buy  posters of people that I admire or adore. It feels just weird, I have never really had the poster of people that I adore hanging in my wall. I do not know why I want it now. Many of these people are not alive now though I wish for their existence. I am really sad they are dead. Few of them are still alive but old. I fear their death. I think I am old fashion, I wish for immortality! immortality and being doomed to live!

Well I do not know, I just want to reread and read, I want inspiration, I want to adore things, I want something extraordinary, I want to meditate, I want to practice yoga, I want peace, I want to be alone, I want to go camping, I want to sleep in a cave!